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Lyn’s Thoughts: “All that I want is to wake up fine” – #2

Yesterday, Governor Newsom gave an order to have all 40 million people living in California to “Shelter in Place.”

I watched the press conference as to why he decided to put this into effect now and to be honest, he’s right. We can’t afford our state to be like Italy, China, and New York. There aren’t enough doctors, supplies, and hospitals to help everyone. And since there is no vaccine yet, the only thing we can do is slow down the spread of Covid-19. It may seem like an impossible task, but it’s doable if we each do our part. I think people need to realize that this isn’t gonna get resolved in a few weeks or months. I think people need to realize that every decision we make now will affect not only ourselves but also everyone around us. We need to make momentary sacrifices for the greater good to protect the tomorrow we hope to have because right now, tomorrow isn’t guaranteed for anyone.

When Governor Newsom released that order, I really thought about going back home to my family. I saw everyone else on campus moving back home while I chose to remain here.

To be honest, the order made me worried about everything. I want to finish my schoolwork without any distractions, but at the same time, I want to spend time with my family because I feel like I’m living on borrowed time. My sister said it’s my call whether I want to come home or not, but I decided to stay up in San Francisco. I will only go home if it’s a dire emergency or I run out of supplies. Plus, I think my mom wouldn’t want me to come home if I have so much work to do. Like always, I have to keep my eye on the prize and reach my goals even if humanity is on the brink of destruction. 

This week I managed to finish reading all the texts I need to read for my orals exam. Now I am writing the two papers. I hope to finish these papers and turn them in before the end of March. I just finished drafting the first paper: I am going to edit it and turn it in this weekend. Homework is keeping me busy, which is good because I’ve been stuck in my room all day.

I’ve been talking to my mom and sister every day, making sure that they are okay since I can’t be with them currently. Also, yesterday was my Dad’s birthday so I made sure to call him. I only give him two calls per year, his birthday and Father’s Day. Even during this pandemic, I still insist to do it that way. Why? During my undergraduate years, I would only call my mom and my dad would get upset. So he would then purposely prank call me using my mom’s phone because I would always pick up for her and then I would ask my mom why did she call me—only to realize that it was my dad who called me. Then my mom would be yelling over the phone at my dad to stop bothering me. It became a running joke that I love.

Because of self-isolation, I always look out my window at night to make sure the lights are on in the other high-rise apartments. It makes me feel secure that I am not alone.

All that I want
Is to wake up fine
Tell me that I’m alright
That I ain’t gonna die

-Paramore


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