2.14.2017 #3

Dear You,

You know Valentine’s Day is actually one of my favorite holidays because everything is pink (and red) and you know that I love the color pink. I actually have an outfit plan today too. I’m going to wear my pink tulle skirt to school today and I don’t care if I look silly because it’s my favorite. :3

You wanna know a secret? Last year, I really wanted to ask if I could be your Valentine. I know it sounds childish but I wanted to ask. I didn’t though because I didn’t want to make you feel uncomfortable and I also didn’t want to embarrass myself for asking something so silly. However, at that time, I thought I would have the following year to ask and I was planning to, but who knew that I wouldn’t be able to do it today.

Looking back at it now, I wish I asked that question last year even if you thought it was silly. Actually, there were plenty of other things that I should have said or done last year but I didn’t because I was too self-conscious or too considerate of your feelings. Maybe I should have been a bit selfish at times, I guess. If I said or done the things I wanted maybe I wouldn’t be thinking so much about it right now. I mean, I enjoyed the time I had with you but maybe I should have taken advantage of the time and made the most of it. Then again, before, I thought I had plenty of time to ask or do things for and with you. I thought our time had no end. But in actuality it did. It did when you decided to not feel the same way about me as I do to you anymore. Now I’m left alone with these feelings and time.

I wonder though if there were things you wanted to ask, say, or do with the short time we had together. Did you make the most of it? Or are you now thinking about what you should have or could have done for and with me?

Last year, I didn’t know what your answer would be if I asked you, “Would you be my Valentine?” This year, I know the answer to that question.

Happy Valentine’s Day.

-Me