This umbrella is special to me.
It was given by someone who was dear to me.
I wanted to share it with only him.
But that won’t happen ‘cuz his heart became grim.
So it’s just me and my umbrella to walk in the rain.
This is the only thing keeping me sane.
But only today I’ll use it, my dear.
After today, I won’t use this umbrella to stay clear.
Written By: LynLynSays
How are you doing? Today marks a week of us not talking anymore and to be honest, it was tough. My friends came to cheer me up for a temporary moment but I still couldn’t get you off my mind.
This weekend, I used the pink umbrella you gave me for Christmas one last time. I’m not going to use it for a while because it’s too precious. If I lose it or it breaks, I will be very sad because you can’t replace it for me. One day, I hope that it has no significance or attachment to you so that I can use it again, but until that day comes, it will stay hidden.
I talked to my friends about you, and they said all the right things to make me feel better. But it wasn’t enough. Even if I tell them all my feelings, it wouldn’t matter because the one person that should be hearing it all is you.
There was a lot of things I wanted to say to you during that phone call, but I couldn’t put it into words and I didn’t think an hour and a half is enough time to say everything. You left me with all these feelings that I can’t throw away carelessly. I should, but I can’t. And if I just keep these feelings bottled up inside, it would just hurt me even more.
I’m taking it back to where this all started, blogging. I decided to write to you. I want to tell you everything—how I feel, how I’m doing, my good days and bad days. I’m not sure if you would actually read these letters. I’m not expecting an answer back from you, but this letter writing will help me feel better because I’m slowly releasing and putting to rest all these feelings I have for you. So that one day, I won’t need to write to you and that’s when you know I am finally okay. Also if you do read these letters, I hope it will give you some peace of mind.
So what do you think? Will you listen to the words that are from my heart?